lots of things

I am currently in Atlanta helping with the boys. They are great but can be a handful, I dont know how Carrie does it! Jason works all the time - hes had a day and a half off since I've been here. Its nuts. I love the boys dearly but they are hard work. One at a time is easy, they are great. They tend to listen and everything but together they fight for attention and battle each other. Noah especially is hard, hes very very strong-willed!!

Tomorrow Tristan is coming to get me in the afternoon. So I told the boys today that I'm leaving tomorrow. Its always hard to leave even when the visit is hard and I'm tired from being with them. I dont know what we're going to do when I'm with him. It will be Saturday afternoon and then my flight leaves Tuesday night so a couple of days. He had suggested going to 6 Flags but with how hot it is I dont know if I can be outside all day long in the heat, I might burn to a crisp!

Oh yeah I think my ring is too big.... it moves when I type - the diamonds go to the bottom - and I'm worried about losing it. I think that when I take it to get cleaned in a couple of months I'll ask about that.

Also trying to schedule things with Toshi working is nuts. I'm working on scheduling food tasting, cake tasting and meeting a DJ - although the DJ has time while hes on vacation so thats great!

Toshi has started work and even though its tough it sounds like it got better after day one - today is day three and tomorrow hes on call for the first time - first official 30 hour shift! Anyway, I can tell its going to be hard with him working but even harder once I go back to work.

I can tell that I am not ready to have kids yet. I get frustrated and upset and I want to yell, sometimes I do. Time out is the greatest thing ever, works well for them most of the time. But it makes me worried how I will do when I have kids. Maybe its because they are related to me that I expect them to be great.... They are great, just really tough sometimes!

All for now, goodnight :-)

Graduation is tomorrow

Now see its funny because it doesnt seem like graduation should bother me. I know a couple of seniors but really Nathan is the only kid that I really know. However today I was talking to Jordan after school and she was saying how shes going to cry at graduation when the seniors start walking in. I was saying I think I'm going to be ok until Nathan gives his salutatorian speech. Well it turns out that Nathan told Jordan (wow how HS!) that hes worried he'll start to cry when he sees me cry. How funny is that?

Anyway, yesterday was his last day but he was already back in today (to get all checked out and whatnot) I went and got him a graduation card and then on top of it a cute little book with fun sayings and things in it. I know that I'm not really supposed to get him a graduation gift, but I figured, why not?

Tomorrow is graduation. I hope kids show up, I hope the play well. I'm going to stay for the whole ceremony but I hope it doesnt last too long. Last year it was quick because we were outside in the cold but this year we'll be inside so it may take longer.

Things are going well. No breakdowns of late (since last weekend at Toshi's) Got an email back from the new therapist - Amy Clark- and I think I'm going to try and set something up with her. Although I've been feeling pretty good recently so of course that is odd.

I ordered a sample of possible wedding invitations and I think we've decided that we'll need to do save the date cards..... oh well, its just money right?

Well I guess thats about all.

I have these phone calls that I dont want to make - State Farm to see if they've heard anything about the other woman paying for my car to be fixed, CitiBank to switch over my mastercard to something thats not driver's edge and Nordstrom to see if they have the dress - although its not on the website.... can I see about emailing? Maybe